Hello April!

And suddenly it is already April! Time flies too fast this year (or every year, I guess). I remember thinking the same thing at the similar time last year, but maybe back then my mind was consumed with wedding preparation. This time, I am consumed with hopes and worries. I am hoping my plan will go as expected, but in other side I feel insecure, thinking that I might not be able to achieve what I want. I haven’t prepared a plan B for that scenario, and now I am nervous. That will be my next homework to make sure I know the path I need to take moving forward.

In other side, I am slowly chasing my passion to be a writer. I try to write at least few sentences every day, to keep the momentum and the desire inside. I love writing a short story, but I am now challenging myself to write a novelette (lighter version of novel, around 7,500 words). I know it is a long way to go, and my age might not support this late “realization of dream” (33 this year, haha!), but I will still do it anyway. I think I would feel more regret later if I do not try it now, regardless if it will not turn out as I want (though of course I hope I will reach my dream to be a writer and have my own books, lol).

So, welcome April! Another month in which I will fight harder and better to follow my passion and my dreams. Ganbatte Kudasai! šŸ™‚

PS. This post made just 10 minutes after I woke up this morning. Sorry for the short and “lazy” post, but I just want to write something to wake me up, hahaha šŸ˜›

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I’m Back (Again)!

I just realized that I have been neglecting my blog for the last two months. Ugh. I promised myself to write more regularly but seems I still could not keep my promise. I guess it is my homework to somehow make it works; maybe having a writing schedule will help since I will be forced to write. Let’s see!

The last two months have been quite challenging for me, though it’s getting calmer nowadays. I have been considering a major decision I might take in my life, and in the end I have committed to do it, but unfortunately, I haven’t got the opportunity to do it yet. Now I am waiting for the opportunity to come, hopefully in the near future. I am just afraid as time goes by, I will lose my sight on this target, and get carried away with current life flow. Being in comfort zone could be as bad as not doing anything in your life. You get so used to it, you don’t even want to think if there is something wrong or need to be changed in order to achieve bigger target or objective in your life. It’s a bit shame, but just couple of months before, I did not think about leavingĀ comfort zone at all. I loved it, in fact, I was so afraid on what could happen if I dared to take the risk, regardless of what I might get if I take it instead.

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After revisited my life plan in January, I understand that I cannot stay longer in my comfort zone. Of course, I cannot just blindly change and leave the comfort zone without a plan. I still need to review properly things that I want to do and risks associated with it. As per today, I notice that my plan didn’t go smoothly as I expected. Therefore I need to think about another scenario which will be applicable for me. Still some homework needs to be done, but I am excited and nervous at the same time. Hopefully everything can goĀ well as per planned. Wish me luck šŸ™‚

That’s all for now. Will post review on Black Panther and Dilan 1990 in the next few days. Until then!



Hello My Favorite Month!

And somehow it is already June! *dance*

After havingĀ roller coaster months since the beginning of the year, I am finally getting some “me”Ā time though very limited. In between moving from Jakarta to Surabaya, adjusting to new job and new office (which is quite far from Surabaya by the way), fitting myself toĀ role of wife, I tryĀ to stop for a while and revisit my life plan. I think it is importantĀ toĀ evaluate what has happened, thingsĀ are stillĀ pending and new items that come up as part of my new family life. It has been an overwhelming yet satisfying experience so far (well duh, I have been married for one month only, haha!). I am excited to embark this new journey even further and achieve what Rendy (my hubby) and I have agreed to.

With this excitement, I am welcoming one of my favorite months ever: June! It is amazing to know that Ramadhan, the holy month forĀ Muslims,Ā falls in the month when I was born. I know it might sound lame, but for me, this situation is bringing wonderful feeling and positive vibe, hoping that in this month IĀ can transform into better person, personally andĀ religiously. It has been a while since I can connect to my inner self and also to Allah SWT properly, overruled by fast working and life rhythm in Jakarta. I am glad that I got this opportunity to move back to hometown which has more moderate pace compared to Jakarta.

So, Welcome June! Let’s get aboard! šŸ™‚

Hello June!


Just a quick update about me…

ā€¦not that it is really important for you lol *sweat drop*


I really feel that January has passed way too fast. I have been juggling work related matters and wedding preparation since last December, and the fact that the time is getting closer does not make any help. It actually just makes me even more nervous, and in a sense questioning again if I am doing the right thing.

Oh, yes, did I forget to tell you? I am getting married.

*background sound of bells and wedding song*

*followed with a scream*

In one side I am happy that I finally found that someone who will be my partner and take care of me for the rest of my life support each other for the rest of our life. In other side, I am a bit worried because it will change my lifestyle completely and of course, my prioritization. I need to revisit my life plan and adjust accordingly without changing too much my main essential goals inside of it.

Sometimes I am thinking that I might be moving a bit too fast – after all, he proposed me just last November. But I know for sure he loves me, and he will treat me very well. I guess it will be a turning point for both of us – adjusting ourselves to each other, and build a family as we plan. Please pray the best for both of us *bow*

As for work related, I am still waiting final confirmation on what will happen to me. With this change inside our organization, we have no other choice than to accept and embrace it with expectation that it will help us to go even further inside the company. I really like my department anyway, so I truly hope I will still be working on this department, at least for the next few years. Fingers crossed!

That’s all for now.



Random: Welcome June, My Favorite Month!

If you are guessing that I was born in June, then I need to treat you a coffee *lol*. I think it is not uncommon that some people like to celebrate their birthday, hence they tend to like their birth month. Yes, I am part of those people, because I like to remind myself on what I have achieved so I can be grateful about it, but more importantly, to also remember what I still need to improve, and what goals yet to reach. 



Okay, maybe I make it a bit complicated than it should, but I can honestly say I love celebrating it because I can have fun with my beloved ones, and particularly enjoying yummy cakes with them.

Of course, without remembering the age part *lol*


When I think a bit longer about it, it seems my favoritism of June is just because I want to have a special time in my life to reflect back and to celebrate life. It is also a coincidence that some good things happened in the very same month. For example, my enrollment in this company, which was one of the best decisions I ever had. It was also in the same month when I started my assignment in Lausanne, Switzerland, and when my lovely nephew was born.

So how about this year?

Funny fact, Ramadhan, the holy month for me and other moslems is actually taking place in June. Ramadhan is a holy month where we are trying our best to prevent ourselves in doing bad things and be better persons. It is a time where you are given a chance to reflect upon yourself and to balance again your spiritual and non-spiritual life.


Having that said, I can happily say I am celebrating June and Ramadhan. Hope you will enjoy June as well! šŸ˜Ž


It Has Been A Long Week…

..and May is not even finished yet. We just had our budget meeting this week, and (as expected) we still have lot of homeworks to be done. Quarter two (of the year) has always been the busiest time, particularly because we try to project already what we are going to do next year. 

Looking back at my days this month, somehow I get an impression that I might have not been working efficiently enough. It was ironic because back then, I was feeling overwhelmed because there were so many things to do and follow up. 

What did I do wrong? Did I mess up my plan? Did I incorrectly assume that I did the right thing while in reality I should have done more?

All these questions now wavering around my mind and makes me gradually hating myself. The fact that I was hammered in our budget meeting last Thursday makes me even want to bury myself deep in the ground.

I hate it. I hate when I could not accomplish my goals. I hate when I could not perform well as I wanted. I hate when I am doing stupid things which jeopardize my plan, or even my future. 

I hate it. 

I hate myself now.

And that’s why I need to shake my head strongly exactly now to get rid this negative feeling. I need to bounce back. I am still sad and I am still disappointed at myself, but it should not be a reason not to go forward and do what I need to do. 

I have to fix this situation, and I will. 


Random Pic: Turkish Tulips

You might be aware that I am interested in photography, even though lately I have not taken any picture at all *cough*. I started learning (entry level) photography around five years ago, and managed to save some money to buy a nice camera (which is still being used – Canon 60D). The difficulty to do it has always been my time management; it has been challenging to manage my working time, family and personal time. Yes, it is a lame excuse, but unfortunately that happened šŸ™‚

So to push myself, I will start again something which I tried to do in the past: posting a picture (taken by me, of course) in weekly basis. No specific theme, but just random pictures following my mood or idea. I think this initiative will successfully make myself nervous and start hunting some more pictures to post!

This time I am posting some pictures of Turkish tulips in Emirgan park, Istanbul, Turkey. We were lucky that they bloomed right before we arrived in Turkey. The beauty of these flowers could make you sit for hours! For sure will visit it again in the future if I have the opportunity.